What stood out to me here is the abuse you have received from others.

I have a son on the spectrum and I get it, but what I don't get is the inhumanity of a species we call humans.

You my dear, are a hero. Your writing is superb, and your face is angelic.

Never give up, and remember anyone who judges you, is in essence judging themselves. Let em go. Emotional abuse is traumatic. I have been there and it can very well be attributed to your illness

Take care of yourself FIRST- Heal your heart, knowing you are a child of a great Creator who never makes mistakes. .